Monday, February 20, 2012
The Lord is FAITHFUL!
It's so exciting to be able to call myself a mommy. I am still in awe that we got a referral earlier this month. It has been a crazy past couple of weeks with paperwork, picking out baby furniture, paint colors, school work, etc. But I am honored to have something to keep me busy. I think one of the best things I did during the "paper pregnancy" lol...was go back to grad school...again. Ha. I finish up in a couple of months...but it has kept me busy and kept my mind elsewhere. So many people told me that the "official wait for a referral" was a lot easier than the "after seeing your baby's face wait". I'll be the first to say....YOU"RE RIGHT ABOUT THAT ONE. After the initial shock of finally getting a referral, it has really sunk in..........I have a baby girl on the other side of the world growing up without me. I had a "moment" today. A moment that we all deserve to have every now and then. I just had to embrace the ugly cry. lol. I was on the phone with my sweet mother....and just let it all go. I feel a lot better now. Jason and I went to Lowe's to pick up the paint for Lily's room. The idea of getting her nursery going makes me feel good. Yesterday morning before we left for church I received a new pic of Lily. She has just grown so much over the past week and a half that it broke my heart. I went on to church and cried all the way thru worship. I needed to cry though...and I needed to worship. As I sang the lyrics "you stay the same through the ages...your love never changes...there may be pain the night, but joy comes in the morning...and when the oceans rage...I don't have to be afraid...because I know that you love me....your love never fails" I felt the Lord comfort my heart. I know the wait is hard, and will probably just get harder...but I also know that the Lord's timing is perfect. Everytime satan tries to bring worry and fear over me I will just sing those lyrics to Christ! I have not slept a lot since I got Lily's referral. I guess that's good practice for when she actually gets here. haha. We went shopping for her yesterday. I got her some of the CUTEST outfits ever. HH told me that she is really getting chunky. lol. So I am sending 3-6 month clothes for her. Sorry this post is so random....I just have so much to talk about. We are not sure when we will get to travel, but we are praying specifically before May. The new laws go into effect in May...and I would love to be able to spend the summer with her. So please pray along with us on this. I am going to post some pics for you all! I hope you enjoy them as much as me:). I already love this baby girl more than life! Blessings, Emily